What should i do in this case?

dear.. u need to be open up yourself. running from anything is not the solution and that is what exactly you are doing. i agree with u that there are so many thing which we can not discuss from our parents. we need to have a friend or a companion for this. and i afraid that u don't have anyone as u said. take my words, don't think what other people think about u. u have been blessed with this life by the almighty. so don't give importance to the other people. just go outside or visit the places you like and try to feel happy. try to be friendly with the people without thinking that what they think about you. u will feel positive by this. and if you think, it wouldn't help then IM me. i m not sure, i can reduce your pain as i m not god. but one thing i can ure u that i would help u to reduce your pain by becoming of your friend. because i think that is what u need i.e. "a friend" ...:)